Friday, March 11, 2011
no naps for me
I should have learned by now not to try and nap with the baby. it always ends with me feeling worse. invariably, i fall asleep, get into whatever the deep sleep is called, and the baby wakes up crying. then i try desperately to make her go back to sleep because half a nap makes me MORE tired, not less. She refuses. If i was a better mother, the resulting 30 minutes of half crying/whining clinginess wouldn't make me feel like leaving the baby alone in her room, turning the music up really load to drown out her screams, and having a drink regardless of it being only 4:00. Good mothers surely don't feel like this. But I do. So really, I should just not nap. Sleep is for the weak.